Waiting To Wake Up

I wake up wondering am I still dreaming? I look around me dazed and confused...

Waiting to Wake up.

What we know about reality tells me that I had been asleep and am waking from a period of rest and that all those experiences I just had while my eyes were closed were not real.

But they felt so real.

I was just holding my son and laughing with him. He had gone off to college and he was home visiting. I felt him. It had to be real.

Then my eyes are forced open and that sinking feeling sets in my gut and I try to shut my eyes again and go back to whatever realm I was just snatched away from. Why couldn't that last forever? Why couldn't I stay there? Or why couldn't he stay here? Why couldn't we stay together as we were meant to be?