I Carry You

Updated: Aug 27, 2020


I carry you in my heart, in my soul, in my being.

I expect to see you- to feel you- to hold you...again.

Faith is belief in the unseen. I couldn't see you in my womb but I felt your presence and knew that one day soon I would see you... hold you... touch you.

It took me 9 months to have you

Its been 9 months since I held you

9 months since I died

For 9 months I've cried

9 months since I was reborn to make sure you stay alive

I feel your presence. My longing to see you is indescribable. I realize this longing is reminiscent of when you were in my womb. I loved you though I'd never met you and ached to hold you, to see you. I had to have faith that you were ok even though I couldn't lay eyes on you. Before my belly ever expanded I felt your love, your presence- even without physical manifestation.

18 years ago the period of gestation ended. After 9 months of longing to hold you, my faith and patience were rewarded with the miracle of feeling the warmth of your skin against mine, the beating of your heart against mine. Love pulsated fro